wolf and full moon
There is a peace found in the dark and quiet hours when the world is asleep around you, and you find yourself wide awake. At least, that's how I feel. A blanket of calm laid itself over me today. I have no explanation for it. Perhaps since I've realized the best course to take for college, and in a way, I came to terms with it. When I'm in moods like this I can appreciate the little things and I don't want to ask for much because I'm afraid it will take away what's really important. 

I really don't have much to say, so I'll end on this note. "The real beauty of life is finding meaning in the little things which are important to you." Happy be-lated Easter. I'm off. 

Goodbye decade.
time flys
 Oh wow. 

The year's almost over. Goodbye to this influential decade. I feel like much of myself was defined these last few years. I became comfortable in my skin. I will never be as confident as some, and I will always hold those insecurities, but I feel good finally being able to express myself. 

I turned 18 last week too. :] Finally an adult. Feels sorta weird I suppose, but hey, it's not like I'm about to go and buy cigs or something. I don't even have a license yet. Kinda irritating. Also deciding on potential college. I'm thinking Albion. Well, there's a pretty good chance it will be. But my brother keeps urging me to keep my options open. :sigh: I keep applying places cause I know otherwise he'd start harping on me about it.  He wants me to go to U of M... HA, yeah that's not gonna happen. 

What else, what else... Been dating this guy, Aaron... and well it's kinda of a long distance thing. I don't know how it's gonna work out, and frankly, I'm not optimistic about it at the moment. 

Christmas is in three days! Finally bought everyone (who's important anyway) a gift. I had to put up the Christmas tree last week by myself, but I didn't mind. This way I was able to add my own artistic idea on how it should turn out. I have to say, at least it doesn't look all slopped together like it usually does. Bravo me.  But I just love the Christmas season. And I'm not even talking about the "receiving presents and giving presents" kinda thing. I just like the feel of the season. How everyone's just a little bit kinder and people go out of their way to help strangers and spend time with those who are important to them. That sounds incredibly corny, but it's the truth. 

To be honest, I completely forgot about live journal. I was at the point where everything was boring, and every idea I had didn't sound appealing. I kinda just wanted to let some words flow out of my head. And that's when I remembered! I've actually been using Facebook to express myself lately. But today... well I dunno... there was nothing to do that I hadn't already done! >.> 

Okay, I think I'm done. Thank you Live Journal for putting up with me these last few years. During my many bad moments, and my few good ones. I feel like I shared a lot of secrets with you. And with every new entry I feel my writing skills grow. Just look at my oldest post. Yeah, I guarantee you'll see a difference. 


Mrow. Went the Kitteh.
wolf and full moon
ALAS. Every day this weeks had been pack full of uneventfulness. I mean, it really can't be any more boring. I've been trying to think of things to do but there is absolutely nothing fun. I'm trying to learn how to crochet, and its endlessley frustarting. Especially since I keep messing up and Diana tells me to start all over again. Last night when I was sleeping was also annoying since Diana thought it would be a great idea to stay up all night and watch anime, so I had to hear her watch Zero no Tsukaimia, and MAN the song was so horrible. But since she has to leave in an hour she decided to sleep for a couple hours before she goes to band. I'm supposed to wake her up at 5 but I am half tempted not to since she was being loud and obnoxious when I was sleeping. Maybe I'll be nice, who knows.

I'm getting so SICK of the bat cave (Diana's bedroom) cause we've been in here for like 15 hours and we haven't done anything. We could of gone swimming today but Diana didn't feel like it. Not that I cared all that much but I'm starting to feel cooped up.

Lol, all I'm doing is eavesdropping on Maria's and my sister's conversation outside. And there totally getting the story wrong about how many cats we had. WHY they're talking about that I don't know.

La di da di daa. I think I just might head out there myself. Adios.

I've had enough sitting around to last me a life time.
time flys
Its 8:23 p.m. on Monday evening, and I've done absolutely nothing today besides wake up at 4:30 p.m., eat cereal, take a shower and then laze around on the computer for 2 hours. Sigh... can today get anymore boring? Normally it's never really like this when I'm with Diana, but she's at band practice until 9 so I was stuck waiting. I told her I didn't really mind waiting when she asked me to come over yesterday for the week but actually this is worse then I thought. Ah well... maybe tomorrow we're heading to the beach. My summer has been getting a little more eventful the last couple weeks. I hung out with Rach and Jessica. Made plans with Carissa and Natalie, but that kinda fell through. So we were thinking maybe next week on Monday would be a good day. I don't really mind, as long as I get to do something. Honestly, now that I am done waiting for HP 6 this summer I feel like it's sorta lost it's appeal. I don't really mind going back to school on September 5th for my senior. Actually, I think it'll be alomost exciting. :) This summer did turn out as I predicted though. I knew I wasn't going to get out of the house much and I knew it wasn't likely that I'd be going on any sort of vacation. However, Rach did ask me to go up north with her later this month! But I wanted to go to Cedar Point... :( Well, I've learned to accept that life doesn't always work out the way we want it to.

Now that I've said that and got it out of my system, I think I'm done here. What I'm up to next... I have no idea. I guess I'll see where today takes me.

This is loads of fun.
believe in magic
Hey guys! Lol, I'm really enjoying my lazy summer! Well sorta, sometimes it gets a little repetitive, but it's alright. I just had my senior pictures done on Monday. Well, it was a lot less stressful than I expected. I was nervous, but it was over in like 45 minutes. Well, I am starting drivers ed in about a week! So that's something! The only thing I'm kinda down about this summer is that I really don't get to go on any vacations with my family cause my parents are working all the time and it's not like we have a whole lot of money to waste. :sigh: It gets a little depressing sometimes, but I try to see the bright side of things. But I mean, you know how much I would LOVE to go to Cedar Point?? Lol, I know, I know, but I am a huge thrill seeker. I may not seem like it, but I love riding dangerous and crazy rides! How cool would it be to go sky diving!? Haha, yeah...

Anyways, I've been watching Anime and Drama more than anything else. I haven't even been reading any books! But the thing is, I can't find any really good books I want to read! The last one I finished was Exquisite Corpse and it was only like 200 pages but it took me AGES to finish it because I just couldn't get into it, at least not until the very end. The ending was gooood... So I've been watching Anime instead. I'm still watching Naruto, just not as much. Also, I'm trying to find something else as well and its between this romance called Saiunkoku Montagari, a Shounen anime called REBORN!, an action called Busou Renkin, or a comedy called Eyeshield 21. :sigh: I know nobody cares but I feel like saying it anyways. But I did just finish this really cute Korean Drama the other day called Coffee Prince. It was a cute romance comedy show that was 17 episodes long. It took me like 3 days to finish it while watching it nonstop! I was just that bored.

Rachel is in China now. I am so happy and excited for her, and I hope she has fun. She's gonna be there for like 2 or 3 weeks. But it should be quite an experience. I just regret that I didn't hang out with her more before she left. She was just working all the time!

Harry Potter comes out in 12 DAYS!! I'm so excited I can like barely contain it! I've been waiting for over a YEAR for it to come out. They just kept delaying the release date! It was really pissing me off! It was supposed to come out the day that Twilight came out, but noooo they changed it to JULY!! But now it's almost here, so I'm even more excited! :D I'm probably gonna see it with my cousin, but it's a toss up between her or my friends. Maybe both??

Anyways, I'm tired of typing, so adios.

:sigh: What a blast
"fear me!"
Heh heh. Guess where I am again. Well, you probably didn't guess it... my cousins. And she is having another party. This time it is a Birthday party, but still. There's gonna be like 30 people here so this is sure gonna be FUN. :sigh: Not really. I don't like these large parties, but I'm gonna stick it out anyway because it's for my cousin. Otherwise I'd be outa here in a flash. I'd much rather be watching some Full Metal Alchemist. It is so darn good!! That's what I was doing last night for like seven hours.

Oh my god, but I had the worst morning I have ever experienced today. If you're a woman I'm sure you've had your share of cramps. But, have you ever had a cramp that hurt SOO bad you couldn't walk because of the pain and instead you were squirming on your bed in pain and crying out for someone to save you from the hellish pain. Yep, that was me. I mean...DAMN!! I've had cramps before but NOTHING that painful. I never want to experience that again.

But right now I am seriously as bored as hell. There is nothing fun to do right now for me. The only two people I want to talk to is my cousin or my sister. One is busy hosting a party and having fun with all her "wonderful" friends, and one it too shy to even show her face in this dinning room. :sigh: I'm all alone!

Have I mentioned it's summer break now? Well, it is. And mine's pretty boring. My few days of freedom have been spent watchin anime. Well, I suppose I shouldn't complain but I really need to get out and do something this summer.

I have nothing else to talk about but if I stop typing that means that would mean I'd have to start thinking of something else to do. Whatever, I'm done. I'm being called selfish cause I'm not sharing the computer and not trying to talk to any of her friends. :/


Chucka Chucka Choo Choo
Harry Potter
Well. School's out now. Summer is here. And it totally doesn't feel like it. I guess this means I am a senior now. We finished up our exams today and Chemistry AND French were killers. Oh god, I don't even wanna know my score. I also had the ACT last Saturday. Talk about feeling like the dumbest person to ever walk this Earth. If I didn't get better then a 22 I just might cry. I'm supposed to find out in like 5 weeks, so I guess I'll find out soon enough. But I mean, what the hell, I don't remember the Science portion being THAT hard. I wanted to cry. And when I didn't finish the Math on time I started freaking out and I just did REALLY bad. :cries: Why am I so dumb at math? WHY?

But some good news. I will be starting Driver's Ed on July 6th. Yes I know what your thinking...FINALLY! And I suppose I will be getting my senior pictures done sometime in August. So, at least i'll be doing something. Oh wait... I do have that summer project for AP Bio, so I'm not scott free. :sigh: Wish me luck on that, I'm sure gonna need it.

Hm. Harry Potter comes out a month from now. And you know's what's really awesome? NOVEMBER is the release of the 7th movie! I KNOW! We don't even have to wait a whole year. I mean, how cool is that!? Utter bliss.

I suppose I'll be passing this summer mostly with my cousin, watching anime, reading, project, or hanging out with Rach. WHO knows. OH, but I do have to get together with some friends so we can make our costumes for YoumaCon this year. Hopefully it'll be fun! I can feel myself turning into a Narutard. I take this to be a good sign, since it is like the Father of all Anime right now and it's took me ages to get into it.

Well, I'm done. Peace and love

old entry
candle flame
Yeah, this is an old entry which I never posted. It's like from two weeks ago. Well here it is.

Anime. I fall on my knees and praise the heavens that such a thing was created. :sigh: There's nothing quite like it, and I am always getting pulled back into it. Right now Code Geass has me in its clutches and I can't do or think of anything that holds the same appeal than watching it right now. However, since I've only been watching in dubbed, I have to wait a few more days until it is released. Only THREE episodes until I am done with the SERIES! Can you understand that anticipation? Well maybe you can...

Anyhow... What a day. It was pretty terrible. Well, not that bad, but it could have been WAY better. Ah who cares, I don't have the energy to rant right now.


I just had some Taco Bell. Now that was a healthy decision. I feel my waist just expanded like 5 cm. :looks down in disgust:

Actually now I am trying to watch some Naruto, since I am actually done will Code Geass. =D GREAT ENDING.

Schools out in like 3 days. One full day and then two half days. Yes, my last day IS on a Monday. That's just how my mentally impaired school likes to operate.

Now for real, this is goodbye.

Nothing to say.
time flys

Yes, exactly... I don't know! -sigh- What a tedious existence. Where's my purpose in life? Where's the adventure? Yes, I feel like there is no end to this cycle. Well who knows, maybe my life will drastically change next year...or maybe tomorrow? There's just no saying what's gonna happen.

Please don't ask to why I just ranted about nothing. Because frankly, I don't even know. I tend to do that when I can't think of anything else to say. Yes, like right now.

Annnnyways, the school year is almost over! Yay. I'm just oozing with excitement. Well actually I am...and I'm not. My mother AND my sister think its necessary to nag my ear off with talk about finding a job. I know I need one and I understand that I'm lazy. but really, I'm to the point where I really can't stand it.

Hmm...what to do, what to do... should I give a detailed description of my day? :D Uhm. No. I don't have the energy or motivation to do so. This is just me trying to find an excuse to rant and pound away at this fantastic new keyboard.

Side note:...Patroclous??

Same Routine.
candle flame

Whatever. Here I am...again. I'm watching this strange show on Discovery called "Doing DaVinci". Hm, it's intresting. Pretty much they're creating one of DaVinci's inventions only written on paper used for war. Ah, it is utterly boring to watch. However I am so bored right now that there really is not anything else I would rather watch right now. All I'd really like to do is go to sleep. It probably appears I have no life. Mmm, it's true.

Tonight is Prom, and I was kinda regretting that I didn't go. Whatever, I'm not dwelling on it, because frankly, I don't even have the energy to feel bad about it. I'm probably going nexy year anyway.

Yesterday was my Lord of the Rings marathon. There some things in my life that never cease to be intresting, and LOTR is one of them...along with Harry Potter. I still feel like the biggest nerd.

Hm, 69 days until HP6. Yes, I've been keeping track. ;p Actually all i do is go to mugglenet and the countdown tells me. I just want summer to come already, I'm so sick of the same rountine.

Well, I gots to go. I'm being irritated by an older sister who's feeling greedy right now. Adios.


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